I would say I am an avid watcher of YouTube, and I have a few vlogs that I watch every day. I am a big fan of Philip DeFranco, and a while back, he did a video showing other YouTube channels, he likes to watch one of them was a channel called “sexy nerd girl”. I checked her out, and I ended up subscribing and watching her videos. She seemed like a nerdy girl just living her life and showing the nerd culture some love. She is even one of the reasons I wanted to get into doing vlogs and videos. It was only until yesterday that I found out that the woman I thought was Valerie Lapomme is actually an actress named Stephanie Kaliner.
So I come to find that all the opinions, jokes, life events, jobs, hobbies and just about everything I saw on her YouTube channel was scripted by a whole team of writers. After more research, I found that it was said on her website and other places that Val was a character, but from just watching the videos that was never made clear until yesterday. To be honest, I was quite crestfallen, there are many reasons I feel deceived and a little betrayed.
One of the things I love about vlogs is that they are a way to share yourself with the world; it allows you to share the lenses you look at the world through. You get attached to these people, and you feel for them when they go through rough stuff. When you come to find out that the person, you became attached to being a fake it oddly hurts.
The best thing I can compare this too is if a friend you grew to know and really like as a friend told you one day that everything they told you was made up and they scripted large pieces of their interactions with you. You would feel angry, betrayed and very mad at that person and fists might even fly. This is what I feel like people who pretend to be someone else online, and then they pull off the mask.
The second reason I am upset is that I feel like she is banking on the nerd culture for views. Lately, nerd culture is becoming more and more mainstream, and nerds are slowly crawling out of basements and comic book shops into the light. When you put on a mask and pretend to be one of us, there will always be a backlash when the truth comes out. Nerd culture to me can be akin to race where you feel close to others in your group just by the very nature that they are like you. People no longer use “black face” to pretend to be black, but it seems like “Nerd face” is now becoming popular and I find it offensive.
A pretty girl saying she is a nerd and peddling these written lines and this written life is I feel wrong and hurtful. She prays on the men, women, and nerd culture to gain popularity when never fully embracing the things she says or does. I just hope the people I choose to watch are more genuine than fake Val turned out to be.
In a world of fakes we don’t need any more than we already have.
The Fedora Nerd – Ben Crawford
P.S. For anyone who was offended by the “black face” reference, i am sorry. The comment was just a comparison and the two are not equal at all. This rant was made when i was upset and is partly just a stupid thing I did when I was bored and upset. It can be taken as satire or the musings of some stupid fat nerd you can take your pick.